Pain of Writing
I should make more lists. I should write more. I should articulate what it is I'm doing, what it is I want, all things and more like this. I've known about this for a long time. I just realized sometthing a few moments ago. That part of why I'm so hesitant to do it is fear. Fear that it wont be good enough. And this fear is in part due to experiences with my father. My father has done a lot of admirable things. What I'm going to talk about isn't one of them. He would constantly shout at me about handwriting. If I got a question right, while studying. It didn't matter if my writing wasn't good. If I wanted to write a story. Didn't matter how good it was unless the handwriting was good. If I wrote about anything at all. Didn't matter what the fuck the content was, if the handwriting wasn't good. This was some arbitrary bullshit to me even 15+ years ago and it's even more arbitrary and outdated nonsense now, when he's doing the same thin...