we should surpass ai

 i'm thinkng about this fo r sos so long

 

 

ages and anges and ages 



thousands of times i've thoughaat about the perrrrfect wayyy to write this. 


a religion

a song

a research stufy

haha,nt that one really

a hackathon - thats real - and might actually be

 

WE SHOULD SURPASS AI - FUCK AI - FUCK HUMAN DISEMPOWERMENT - I WANT ACTUAL HUMAN EMPOWERMENT, NOT TOOL EMPOWERMENT 

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