choice. insecurity
I'm feeling depressed. Or fearful. I'm insecure. I'm worried that none of the choices I make will be correct. I'm worried that I keep on wasting time. I'm worried that I'm wasting everyone else's time. I'm worried that I'm wasting my mothers life. That I'm being a disappointment of an older brother. I'm worried that I'm disappointing my dreams. I'm worried that I'm wasting my team's time. I'm scared that I'm not actually working to make a bright future. I know when I'm wasting time. I keep doing it. I'm so self obsessed. I don't pay enough attention to the hopes I have. I don't respect my time enough. I don't respect myself enough. I don't trust myself enough. I've lost some of the faith I had in myself. I get it back. It's fleeting. THAT WASN'T FAITH. That was hope. I've been chasing ideas. I've not been making money. I should make some money. Real money. I want to be les...